Changes

So it's been almost 2 years since I've posted and I have decided I need to start blogging again.  This time I'm going to get a little more personal in my posts because life has brought a lot of changes in that time.  I am currently working for a radio station and I am now preparing to have surgery this summer.  I have spent most of my life as an overweight female and up until about a year ago it never really phased me.  When I started trying to get my dream job teaching high school history I started hitting a wall that I couldn't seem to break thru.  I never had considered that employers may see my weight as a problem until in an interview I was asked if I had chronic illnesses.  Now believe it or not for most of my adult life I have managed not to get sick a whole lot.  When I was asked that question it stunned me and made me realize that might be something that was being judged but not asked.  A year ago last month was when some things started to sink in.  We lost my cousin who was only 10 years older than me to a heart attack.  Needless to say that makes you start examining things.  So in February of this year I took the first steps toward Bariatric surgery because I want to be here for my family for good long while and because I'm ready to be healthy.  On Feb 13th I had my orientation appointment.  At that time I weighed 391 lbs and to beat it all that's not my highest weight.  As of today I weigh 375 lbs which for me is a big deal because I hadn't been able to get below 380 lbs until now.  I have 2 more doctors appointments and 10 more pounds to lose before I will hopefully get to see the surgeon.  So while I go thru this journey I am going to blog and maybe some of you will find encouragement from it.