New Obstacles

Good afternoon all.  I found out a few days ago that BCBS (Blue Cross Blue Shield) was requiring 12 months worth of discussion and work on my weight.  This is a little aggravating since I have had doctors telling me most of my life how to fix my weight problem but nothing has really worked.  What they don't seem to understand right now is that this was not an easy decision.  When I was 16 I had a doctor that did everything in his power to get me in to have surgery.  I didn't want it and up until about 2 years ago I didn't think it would really do any good.  Then my dad went through the program and I realized that the way the program is now was so much better and it became a consideration.  I'm looking forward to all the possibilities that are in front of me and I hope to be in better shape for my 30s and onward.  I had my last appointment with Mission Weight Management yesterday and got the approval to go see the surgeon.  So hopefully I will see him within the next 2-3 weeks and know the plan of attack from there.  I have got a few things that have occurred recently that I'm worried about but I know there's a reason for it happening now and not down the road.  So for now I will focus on the good and deal with whatever comes as it comes.

Success and Beginning to feel new

Well I woke up yesterday morning thinking it's gonna be a stress free day and it's gonna be good.  About an hour and a half later I got a text that basically put an end to it being stress free.  I'm not a drama person and I thought well there goes my whole day.  Instead of eating to relieve it I stuck with my schedule and looked forward to my weight loss support group.  For me that 1.5 hours last night was a chance to get away and forget about everything.  I went home ate a little supper and I didn't expect to really see a weight loss because when I'm stressed even though I watch my eating some how I still end up with some weight.  Well not last night.  I woke up this morning and I was 365lbs.  I am now officially below the goal the weight loss center gave me and I'm still working towards being 350lbs if possible before I start my liquid diet.  I found myself all of the sudden feeling like a new person yesterday too.  My weight has always been a problem but I'm finally feeling optimistic about my ability to change it and I'm doing it.

Not letting stress win

This weekend brought some more stress but I had the will power to control what I ate and even though I didn't lose I didn't gain.  For me that's a plus cause normally if I'm stressed I don't think about the rules.
On top of that I weighed this morning and I was 369.  Yay I broke to 370lb mark.  3 more pounds to the goal set by the bariatric center and 19 more pounds to my top goal.  However I will celebrate if I'm at 360 when I meet with the surgeon.  I'm loving everyday even though stress is causing my body to fight I'm not giving in cause this is too important.

So that was yesterday and I didn't publish it but I'm going to add to it today.  I am now at 368lbs and I'm figuring out what has helped change everything.  I've changed some more of my eating habits and I'm eating at least 2 hours before bed.  With the hours I'm working right now that's normally supper.  I'm also learning to avoid or ignore things that I know are going to irritate me so that I don't build up tension.

I'm also setting my goals and I think they are fairly reasonable.  They are weight related but also exercise related.

Goal for 4/30-5/6 Weigh 366 walk the dog 2 days
Goal for 5/7-5/13 Weigh 362 walk the dog 3 days
Goal for 5/14-5/20 Weigh 358 walk the dog 4 days
Goal for 5/21-5/27 Weigh 354 walk the dog 5 days
Goal for 5/28-6/3 Weigh 350 walk the dog 6 days

I believe if I can achieve these goals I will be well on my way to success with everything I'm doing.  I also know that as long as I am moving and starting to feel better I'm headed the right way.